whoa! they changed wordpress’s layout! i’m liking this new quick-post thing – much more similar to what xanga was like back in the day (ironically, they have a “switch to classic mode” option at the top right in case people don’t like the change, where back then, xanga seemed to try to become more complicated like word press back in the day and i chose to switch back to “classic” mode because i liked this simple style better. so yay!) I also like how they FINALLY put the login button back on the front page – for a while there, i just had to keep finding my admin page stored in address bar cache in order to get to the login page.
anyways! had an awesome weekend in atlanta, despite the lack of sleep and stressful lack-of-finding-rides situation. after the conference, a friend i’d met at the youth retreat last month picked me up and we went to karaoke!!! i don’t think i’ve gone since graduating from berkeley, so it’s been probably over 5 years since i’ve last gone with people. i loved how enthusiastic everyone was and how they all sung/danced their hearts out. karaoke’s really only fun when people aren’t afraid to put themselves out there, and when everyone is willing to sing along, so i’m glad everyone was really into it 🙂 made some good memories. then i got to learn some guitar tips from another friend before sleeping over at another person in the church’s place (thank you so much for opening your house up cindy!) it’s amazing how people will open their houses up to perfect strangers – really felt the love from the Christian community through all that happened this weekend. i mean, i literally met these people for a couple days or less, and they were willing to drive out pretty far just to pick me up, find a place for me to stay, come out of their way to karaoke with me, and find rides to everything in between. so crazy.
i also realized again how much i miss the asian community. i miss having people to do things like go karaoke with, or to eat dim sum family-style with, or play impromptu frisbee games after church, like we did this weekend. i miss people who would go over to each other’s places to hang out, or cook, or play video games/watch shows together, play sports together, and see each other relatively often. i guess basically what i’m describing is what my college life is like, so maybe i just miss being in college where everyone was around and up for hanging out (and single… sorry, had to be said, since i’m in the South right now where everyone’s married young). and also where everyone is real with each other. maybe it’s in the way they tease each other, allow each other to be sarcastic or dorky or whatever at each other, but something just makes it feel more true and real than what i feel like i experience here a lot of the time. and maybe it’s just because it’s naturally hard for me to get to know people, or because of a cultural barrier, or something, but even among my church friends here (whom i’ve gotten to like a lot), i feel like there is still some distance. i don’t want to call it “fakeness” or false cheer because i do think they truly care about each other and me. but it is still hard to connect sometimes, despite having known some of these people for about a year now. whereas these people who i’ve only known for a few days, and met only in the last month or just over the weekend, i feel like we’ve bonded already and are really happy to see each other.
i wonder if part of it is because most of the people i hung out with were guys, whereas a lot of the people i interact with at church are girls? i also feel closer to my fencing med school buddies, most of whom are guys or girls who are more tom-boy-ish. hm, but there are guys i get along with decently at church too, and there were some girls at the atlanta church i got along with… @__@ eh, whatever. but yeah. haha it was actually pretty touching – one of the girls who i got to meet this weekend at karaoke said she was glad we finally met, because most of the people had met me at shocco and talked about me, but she didn’t know who i was because we didn’t really get to meet each other then. i’d also seen her around but didn’t get a chance to talk to her at shocco, so it was good we finally got to meet 🙂
anyway, on a completely different note, they FINALLY got Jellal’s face right in the latest FT episode! WHOO~! And they put in some extra, cute Jerza moments in there ^.^ hehe!