okay. i really believe there’s gotta be some connection between the tongue/oral passages and the brain in terms of glucose sensing or something, because there’s no way eating a couple bites would have adjusted my glucose levels enough to make me feel better (though of course there is amylase and such in your mouth so it does start digesting glucose through the mouth a little), but yeah. phew. already feeling much more alert and no more hand shaking. the fuzziness in the head is still kinda there, but receding. phew!
oh. em. gee.
literally wallowing in “i can’t”-ness right now. man, hypoglycemia fatigue is real yo. seriously, at that last batch of extractions, i could feel the sluggishness of my movements, and it was really hard to keep moving and pushing forward. my brain was totally burnt out too… literally felt the slowness of my thoughts and was like this is not good. started getting lightheaded and dizzy, and my hands weren’t very steady. i had some peanuts a labmate gave me a while ago, so i poured a handful and just popped it into my mouth because i had no energy left and was waning fast. so drained.
i’m hoping i’ll perk back up once i’ve got some food in me. luckily i still have a few ready to go things in the freezer, so am currently steaming some 小籠包 in lieu of cooking because i’m so sapped of energy i don’t think i would be able to survive standing to cook for another hour or so. i mean sure, i could probably actually do it and would if i were starving, but right now, i think i’m going to enjoy the fact that i have food readily available and don’t need to expend that effort to do so. and this is why it’s important to always have some sort of either microwaveable or very quick and easy to go thing in the freezer. which i’m actually running low on – this is my last package of buns, i’m down to 1.3ish bags of dumplings, and no microwaveable meals. there are a couple microwaveable eggrolls left, but i’ve been eating them enough recently to be a little sick of them, and going to save them for emergencies. looks like i’m gonna need to go for a costco run tomorrow.
fooood. hurry up please…. T______T
it’s really quite amazing how just one thing in the body (blood glucose) can be so important and effective. i mean, think of all the “hangry” people. pretty crazy how influential it is.
anyway, sitting here and typing is even a bit too much effort right now. gonna go lie down until food’s ready. bye.
edit: wow… took me like 5 tries to pick up one bun, my hand was shaking so much. spilled some of the juice >.< and need to wait a bit to eat since it’s too hot. >.<
whew! i seem to have “off” days and “on” days. most of the days last week (thanks to sam getting me GW2 -.-||) were “off” days sort of… off in the sense that i basically didn’t do any work besides the minimum needed to keep my cells alive and home/classwork, etc. though my brain was still “on” because i still had to think a lot and study the game a lot… i think that’s why i tend to have intense bouts of either marathoning stuff or long time gaming because if i’m going to do it, i want to do it well, and things like gw2 or elsword or ro require actually thinking about how to do stuff in the best way (and for the most part i don’t read guides because that makes things pointless in my mind). but anyway.
so to make up for my lack of work, today was a fully “on” day in the lab – one of those on-your-feet and not really any breaks – just gogogo for the whole day – kind of days. my back really hurts T__T which basically means i have really sucky posture normally, because i was actively trying to stand up and move around with my back straight today to distribute weight since i’ve been having knee problems again. but yeah. super tired but on the last set for the night so hopefully i’ll be able to get back and eat something at 8pm (today was also one of those basically don’t have food the entire day kind of lab days lol).
but i’m glad that i actually got off my butt to do work today. like my mom very aptly reminded me yesterday, i need to keep in mind what my “main course” is. it’s all fine and dandy to be doing all these extracurriculars and projects, and to “relax” while gaming or anime-ing or whatever, but if those take up more time than what i’m supposed to be here for, then that’s a problem. so i need to remember that.
random thought of the day:
sometimes, when i read fanfics, i read the author’s notes at the top where they thank all the reviewers and how it helps encourage them to move forward, and/or how they are stuck in a writer’s block or how life was getting in the way so sorry they didn’t post on time… and i was thinking maybe i should be like them and use writing fanfics as a way of not just showing tribute to characters/stories i love, but also to get some practice writing and developing a story. it sounds like it’s a good platform to put your work out there and have people give feedback.
unfortunately, on the other hand, while sometimes i do dream/think about what might have happened with certain characters, or really enjoy characterizations given to certain characters in alternate universe fics, i think i would rather create my own characters (or even if i base it on historical figures, it would be completely reinterpreted to how i would imagine them to be as they usually don’t have much personality on their own from ballads etc). i don’t think i could bring myself to try to write out a story of something that’s already written in the way it’s supposed to (in a manner of speaking), if that makes sense.
random thought of the day: Is making a cover or transcription of a piece/song similar to writing fanfics of characters from a novel/series to their respective artists?
in a way i think both would be flattering that people felt so moved by one’s work to take them and reimagine them. though i think one major difference is that while both can be botched, fanfics can go down roads of depravity that i don’t think music really can (unless someone really messes with lyrics down that same road if the music has any).
anyway, what got me thinking about this is that i finally looked up Animenz’s work on youtube, being curious whether the transcriber/composer (?) of the Swordland Main Theme sheet music i’d found and somewhat practiced back in Nov/Dec actually played it somewhere so that i could hear what they intended it to sound like. And LOL I thought I got the first page down… but I’m nowhere NEAR up to tempo LOL. Here it is in all its glory:
He has incredible work up on his site. And you can’t call these works direct transcriptions really, because he adds a TON more stuff (for example, here’s the actual soundtrack for Swordland… NONE OF THAT DIFFICULT LEFT HAND FLURRYING STUFF IS THERE RAWR) and it clearly has his own flair in there. So I don’t really know how to categorize this kind of thing or how to give credit (is he the composer? arranger? ah! arranger! i think that’s the proper term). But regardless, excellent work.
(ah, listening to this again i remember why i liked it. and still kind of proud that i managed to pick out the main violin line haha – not that it was that difficult, albeit it is in a weird key… just that i’m not usually good at picking things out by ear).
HAH! i was wondering/hoping morgiana would get longer hair so i could reuse an erza wig if i ever wanted to cosplay her… and she has. muahaha! hahaha
also, you know you’ve watched too much anime when you can start picking up people’s voices in different anime’s. i’m not that great at it yet, but i can tell when voices sound familiar… and some are pretty obvious (like for sure i knew kouha’s voice actor had to be the same as natsu’s, and it was cuz he basically sounds like a more toned down version of natsu lol). also, i thought it was funny that kirito’s voice actor did end up showing up in magi as well in the form of titus, who is also blond, and hilariously also thought to be a girl like kirito’s avatar was in GGO. actually, i thought kouha was also a girl until he talked lol. a lot of guys are pretty girly looking in magi… like, more so than people usually say so about animes. like, i can count off at least 3-5 characters right off the bat that i literally thought were girls until they talked and i was like wait what?
and yeah… another thing mangakas seem to be fond of is really really old ladies (i’m talking like hundred year+ olds) looking like either kids or much younger versions of their current selves. and also nonsensical incantations seem to be pretty common too ahaha. oh. and sasuke-like characters are popping up all over the place what. first uryuu from bleach, and now hakyruu from magi (they even rhyme… -.-||).
annnddd… there goes season 2 of magi. phew. and it’s way too late to be staying up. again.
anyway, today was also the first performance i’ve ever had with a band! well… it’s weird to say that, since i’ve played with almost everyone before on stage, but in a worship-team setting haha. but it’s the first time we were playing original songs by one of our members (the lead singer/songwriter/player of way too many instruments LOL). man that guy is talented. everyone even called for an encore, which while the rest of us came off the stage, he solo sang/played guitar for i guess another song he wrote, and it was awesome. and for once the entire crowd was silently spellbound (we played at a coffee shop so throughout the set people were chatting and the noise level that resulted in that small, echo-y space was quite difficult to play over) but yeah. killed it. and he was pretty sick too (he’d been hacking his lungs out the last week or so, and throughout the day today), so all in all, he did extremely well considering. whoo!
i honestly have no idea how i did. i think i did decent in some areas, but literally could not hear myself throughout the first song and a half, so basically was doing the equivalent of walking around blind, only guessing with rough feeling of fingers where the notes were and hoping i was in tune and on beat lol T___T. and the rest of the time, i could hear a thin streak of sound, and it oftentimes it sounded out of tune to me, but it was so hard to hear that i couldn’t tell how off it was to fix it. T___T it was fun though.
er… didn’t actually mean to type about it right now, since i’m all woozy from lack of sleep and thus can’t give a good reflection on it, but anyway, there you have it. i do enjoy playing in a group though – i’ve missed that a lot, and i guess this is a different way of doing so than chamber music groups, which have been pretty difficult to find here. so praise God for opportunities like this. speaking of which, i also really liked how we prayed amongst ourselves before we went to play. it was pretty short since we had to go up really soon after, but it was good. 🙂
if i’m lucky i’ll get a chance to post something meatier on it tomorrow, but if not, at least this post will serve as a marker, if nothing else.
well 2nd random thought, but can’t remember the first at the moment. but anyway.
i wonder if writers (including books, manga, screenplay, etc) ever read what people write on forums or comments, and snigger to themselves at the ridiculous theories people come up with or random pairings or what have you. or, along that vein, do they ever come across a good idea they hadn’t thought of and decide to incorporate that in their work? how would crediting work for that i wonder… if someone else had the idea but they were the ones who brought it to a more wholesome fruition and worked out the nitty gritty of how to get those ideas across? hm…
or do writers just block all of that off while they are still in the series to avoid being influenced by others so they can see the vision of what’s going on more clearly?
hmm… if i were ever in that situation, i think curiosity would get the better of me, at least at first, and i would trawl around the interwebs just for amusement (though i’m sure there will also be trash talk and that would depress me lol). but probably the novelty would wear off, or i’d worry about being influenced, so i’d probably quickly stop. and if i ever DID get an idea from something i read online or something, i’d be sure to credit them in the acknowledgement section or something. i think that’s only fair.
anywhoos, just finished the first season of Magi. Not bad
Oh, I also finally realized who Alibaba reminded me of. He’s basically like a light colored version of kirito! and i think that’s also why his voice threw me off at first, since i was probably subconsciously expecting a kirito-like voice 0.o and apparently mangakas really like to recycle the RING OF MASSIVE AMOUNTS OF SWORDS POISED IN THE AIR TO STRIKE thing, as well as the use-water/steam-as-illusion thing. oh, and the ear-splitting howl/scream that knocks all enemies back
starting to understand the let-me-send-you-an-email/response-to-that-right-away-or-i’ll-forget phenomenon. T___T i used to be pretty good at keeping track of all the things on my mental to-do list, but nowadays i find myself being like all these “scatterbrained” professors who are excited for your project one second, and then you never hear back from them and have to send multiple e-mails to remind them to give you what they said they would to help you move forward. at some point, there’s just TOO MUCH TO DO. and to a chronic procrastinator like me, that just means the pile-up is that much quicker and the list is that much longer, which makes me too daunted to even start, which of course makes the cycle even more detrimental.
although i will say, also within the last week or so, i’ve started becoming more productive on realizing that, and have been doing things a little at a time to try to at least somewhat curb the teetering, towering cliff that is my to-do list from toppling all over the deadlines waiting to smash them (and my life with it).
also been SUPER hungry lately. not sure if that’s because i’ve suddenly started carb overloading (not on purpose) or because it’s an unconscious stress response or something 0.o
AHHHHHHHHHHH! How did I not know this existed until now?!!?! Basically the story of how FT was founded, now on chap 7, and maybe we’ll finally see how mavis died?!?!! (i’m guessing zeref accidentally killed her, but she was saved/stuck in a stasis/sleeping spell much like what jellal eventually came back from). but yeah EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
speaking of FT… the latest chapter (416) ahhhhhhhhhhhh?!?!?!?! *SPOILERS*
ok i’ll admit, the fangirl in me is enjoying the cute pairing scene (although really? the jellal thing… as much as they’re my favorite pairing and all, that did seem a bit too convenient…and wait, wasn’t he supposed to be blind? and wait, for that matter, wasn’t erza supposed to be blind too?! what.) the gray juvia thing i’m a little like meh, but at least it makes sense in context.
also wow fan commenters nailed it right on the nose at the reveal on the last page. i’m kind of impressed (and sad that it was “spoiled” for me, cuz there was no way i would have though of that otherwise… -.-||). also messed up shadowing of zeref’s face there mashima lol, but yeah.
FT disbanding wah 😦 FT totally sounds like it’s winding down soon *sigh*. also mest/doranbolt. what. ….
wow. now i know why naruto shippuden tugged on me emotionally like fairy tail did. and maybe also why i like log horizon so much… the music for all of them are apparently done BY THE SAME PERSON!!! @____@ CRAZY! and he apparently even does the music for SM crystal too o.0 that’s a TON of work! i can’t imagine how creative he must be to come up with all that (and actually apparently 2 of his songs from one of the naruto shippuden movies sound a lot like FT songs, causing confusion haha 0.o which is how i found out it was by the same person). so i guess now on top of alan menken being someone i look up to musically, i need to add Yasuharu Takanashi to that list. amazing work and great at emotional heartstring tugging, and also epic fight music!
i think it’s also cool how he makes such distinctive sounds for different series (i mean, that’s why people were confused about that one instance where he mixed the character of the sound/instrumentation between naruto shippuden and FT after all right?). even though now that i know they’re all by the same person and can pick out similar elements he uses to get across certain ideas, the motifs and overall feel of the pieces are just different enough to give each anime its distinct flavor. really neat. and let’s not even mention just the amazingly large body of work just these 3 or 4 series takes each! and he does way more than those of course. dang. he must be working to the bone @___@. so crazy.