So… spent a good portion of the afternoon reading about serial killers, thanks to a random thing that popped up in my newsfeed about the 15 last meals some of these people on death row requested for. I think I’d actually seen the list before, but on a whim today I decided to look up some of the people and their histories.
Not the best idea. It’s stuff like this, and this, along with things going on like the ISIS beheadings and stuff, that make one really depressed with the state of the world. It is interesting though that it seems most of the male serial killers do so because of a sexual desire that eventually progresses to death as the final “possession” of a person, and so the deaths are concurrent with things of a sexual nature. even if that person also has a wife or girlfriends whom they are with. while the only female serial killer on that list was protection against/revenge for sexual abuse.
it’s also interesting to me that all of these people seemed to be able to carry on their normal lives even with their spouses or whatever. they seem to be able to “care” for someone in the sense that they don’t tend to kill the people they’re living with or in a relationship with, and not their friends or coworkers. so do they, in fact, have some moral code intact? or is it just because it would be too easy to trace if it was someone they knew? is it then, better to actually know these serial killers on a personal level in that sense? bundy talked about how he would stay away from one of his girlfriends when his “sickness” was rising… so in a way, did he want to protect her from himself? but then you think about the horrific acts they did… and then you wonder how can anyone, any person do these things to another person? and not just one, but dozens, hundreds maybe even. just reading about how the witnesses that did survive try to give testimony… but couldn’t, whether because of physical trauma in bundy’s case, or just severe psychological and physical trauma from gacy’s (they began vomiting and were in such distress they were taken off the stand), it makes you really think about the level of depravity they must have sunk to. also necrophilia until only being stopped at the point of putrefaction?! UGH cannot even … uaseriael;ihg;laihsdf (the levels of disgust are profound right now.) i am curious what made gacy let those two or three guys go through, after the torture, compared to all the rest who he systematically murdered.
also, can you imagine what it could be like being a family member, spouse, or child of someone who was found to be a rapist/serial killer?! with bodies buried in the house even for some of these! lksajd;lfiawhe;liahweirh ugh! how that must mess with their own psyches… in all these stories I read, you read about the facts of the case, but not very much the feelings of those around the killer, or the families of the victims and the devastation they must have felt, and how did they feel after the killer was found? how did they feel about police investigations that went and didn’t “notice” anything odd about these people? i’m reminded again of that cleveland case last year of 3 women who were chained in a basement for decades, and despite a decent amount of neighbor reports, police only did a cursory check and never found them. it’s just mind-boggling sometimes. but anyway. i really understand why for a time when i was young, people stressed not going to cars with strangers or helping a random person on the street to their car… because that’s exactly what ted bundy was doing at the time. so scary how easily someone could disappear even in the midst of a lot of people. no wonder parents worry about their children/teens so much.
anyway, onto the Serial. funnily enough, when i first heard about the podcast “Serial”, my immediate thought was that it was a show or something on serial killers. that’s how primed my mind is to think about these kinds of things apparently lol. Speaking of which, I said I’d eventually post about my thoughts on that, so here’s a brief summary on my theory of what actually happened (obviously *SPOILER ALERT*):
I believe Jay’s coworker and friends who said he was very shaken up/agitated that night of the murder. I also believe what he said about Stephanie being threatened and that he would do anything to protect her… which may include lying about knowing who did the murder, if either she was somehow involved or she was being threatened about being the next victim. Now, whether he’s telling the truth about who killed Hae and his involvement in it… that I don’t know. My guess is he does actually know the killer, but he is protecting them or someone (maybe Stephanie at the time), which is why his story is so inconsistent. I do think he actually did help in burying the body though.
It could have been this random serial killer Ronald Lee Moore who did it, and maybe Jay stumbled upon the scene on accident. I don’t know though – it says Hae was killed but not sexually assaulted, which doesn’t seem to fit with his crimes (though in trying to find more details about his murders, I was having trouble finding out any details since it as all been buried under posts linking him to Serial -.-|| so can’t confirm that from news articles, only based on what Koenig said). I do think Mr. S. did know about the body, and there’s a theory floating around out there that maybe he heard about it in jail, since his jail time overlapped apparently with both Ronald Lee Moore and maybe Jay’s father??
^ Speaking of, man, the wonders of what people can find over the internet nowadays. Crowdsourcing is indeed a powerful thing. Makes me wonder if those earlier serial killers talked about in this post could have been found and a lot of their victims spared had 1) police actually looked into the leads that were given them a LOT sooner (ugh, I know, hindsight 20/20, but seriously?! it sounds like there was such an obvious trail and if someone keeps repeatedly coming up by multiple people, regardless of their past history, they would be checked into… anyway), and 2) social media could have been utilized. There’s so much mobilization going on to these high-profile cases, and I’ve even seen it on my own facebook feeds once in a while about a person who goes missing and of people sharing pictures of them and when they were last seen in efforts to find anyone who knows something. And it works… or if nothing else, at least spreads awareness in a much faster way than back in the day. If there isn’t one already, I feel like someone should put up a site that is specific for missing persons alerts or other such things, so that people can do a quick search via social media and other means to find them. Anyway, tangent, sorry.
But yeah, I don’t know. For the most part, based on the complete bewilderment in Adnan’s voice when he talks and small things here and there like maintaining his innocence for so long and other things, I tend to believe he didn’t do it. Then of course, is the strange question of his phone being in Leakin Park that night, when he told his friend he’d never been there before. That, to me, is unexplainable, unless he was either doing a drug deal with Jay or someone else there that night, or if Jay (or someone else) took his phone along with them to bury the body (or some other reason) to plant suspicion on him later. But then, I just found this. That’s the first of three articles that summarize Jay’s exclusive interview with The Intercept that looks pretty freaking bad for Adnan. My only other theory that would correlate with all of this, is that Adnan was either so high/drunk he blacked out about his doings that day, or that his mind literally couldn’t cope and repressed all of this from him, so that he actually doesn’t remember doing any of it. Agh, I don’t know.
Oh but, this is a good read in case you did listen to Serial and did not understand some of the (legal) reasons behind certain points: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/tamara-shayne-kagel/ten-legal-things-people-dont-understand-about-serial_b_6310118.html I happened to know most of this from law classes in high school and public speaking/mock trials growing up (thanks mom and my old high school for offering those classes), but I can see how some people might be upset at some of the happenings in the series if they didn’t understand some of these basic points.
on a separate note, things like this make me remember how much i was interested in criminal law back in high school, and even sometimes today. some things make me just wish i could jump on that stand and have a go at it, grilling someone on inconsistencies or emphasizing important points to the jury that i feel haven’t been properly addressed (ask anyone who’s ever played mafia or certain games like resistance with me. people don’t always agree, but i try to lay things out logically for people hah). but then i remember that there’s a lot of busywork/shuffling of papers and procedural things before the court trial that i don’t know if i could stand, and then there’s also the fact that i’m so incoherent normally that if i did take the stand to make an opening or closing speech, i’d likely bungle and wouldn’t be able to memorize it, and on the stand i’d probably sound like a stuttering fool in cross examination or whatever. (though maybe i wouldn’t if i was really chasing a point like i do in those games… who knows). but regardless, the main thing i would probably struggle with is if i was defending someone who i knew was guilty. especially guilty for heinous, heinous crimes like those mentioned at the beginning of this post. could i stand there, as the attorney for someone like john gacy or ted bundy, and try to push for the minimum sentence or an acquittal even? for dangerous, antisocial psychopaths, and knowing full well that they did, in fact commit those crimes since they admitted to it and the evidence was clear? i honestly don’t think i could do it. and that’s one of the main reasons some part of me gave up that field long ago, when someone brought that fact up to my attention. that you don’t always get to choose your cases, especially at the beginning. i think it’s a sad, sad system if it causes people who originally want to fight for justice to be deterred because it means their sense of justice needs to be put on hold in order for the system to run “fairly”.