Oh man… CONGRATS Leonardo Di Caprio!!! He FINALLY won an oscar tonight for Best Actor, which is awesome, especially since it’s been such a long time coming. I’ve had a soft spot for him since Titanic, and he just seems like such a nice, hard-working guy, and I’m just really happy for him. I hope videos and articles start popping up soon so I can finally watch it (apparently ABC doesn’t live stream here, and I don’t have a TV lol -.-||)
i went to a friend’s place to get a body double made with duct tape, which was cool… but as we were taking it off, unfortunately, she accidentally cut my gold necklace… the one i’ve been wearing every day since i was around 11-12, when my parents gave it to me for my birthday/christmas. pretty sad/upset :((( and it’s not like a chain-link necklace or anything that might have been easier to repair – it’s like twisted strands of gold. i’m hoping a skilled jeweler can just solder it together or something, but it would be difficult to tell whether someone is skilled enough to do it well i think. it’s pretty delicate, so the wrong repair would definitely make it stick out like a sore thumb. gah. >.< sad day. 😦 😦 😦
HUH. i wonder if their sensei is actually the “little giant” o.0 It would be weird because it’d mean that he was faking about not knowing much about volleyball at the beginning (which was mostly for expositional purposes anyway), but… his height and hair actually kind of match. just realized that (episode 11 of season 2) – we’ll see i guess 0.o.
edit: or maybe he’s a sibling (older?) of the little giant, who is working so hard b/c he wants to restore karasuno to its former glory and reach the goal it never did even with his brother, which is to win the national championship? hmmm really want to know!
man, i really don’t know what my problem is. i actually enjoy writing, when i start it. but the starting is the hard part. i guess it doesn’t help that i’m unsure of my data. oh well, gotta start somewhere right? right.
what is it like? to go full out on something? to try, try, and try again, no matter how much you get knocked down or what gets in your way? to push yourself to the limit, or past? what is it like to work so hard at something that you leave yourself no excuses, and no regrets? to practice as hard as you can, every day, and to butt heads against teams and rivals over and over again? to love something so desperately and want to get better at it all the time? what is it like to fight for a team, and to have that team depend on you in turn?
i’ve started watching haikyuu (bad idea for productivity), which is the volleyball anime. while i’m not as much a fan of it as i was kuroko, or even free, it still has that team feel. and i realized… well 2 things. 1, it’s funny how the sports animes i’ve watched are ones i actually had fun doing when i was younger – i used to play bball in middle school at lunch for fun, and volleyball was the only sport i was on a team for (briefly) in 6th grade. swimming i used to love as well, though i never was on a team for that. next thing you know, i’ll be watching prince of tennis… i used to play that over the summers as well in middle school, though i never liked it that much. but anyway, the 2nd thing is that i realized i’ve never really done a team sport, save for that brief semester of volleyball mentioned earlier. even things i’ve done that i’ve competed in as a “team”, like wushu my first year at cal, was still done through individual events. yeah, i guess there were groupsets, both for wushu, and for dance, but again, most of that is individual training – practicing kicks and moves over and over to memorize, and just getting together to make sure we synchronized. music as well. but while that’s also rewarding in its own way, i don’t think it’s the same as playing on a sports team. the unpredictability of the ball, adjusting plays based on your opponents, communicating tacitly and understanding your teammates to pull off smooth plays… even at high level performance arts that might come close to that, i think most of those would still be individual lights that merge or fight, rather than coordinating to fight on the same side against another group.
ahhh >.< maybe i should try joining intramurals sometime after all… but i can’t help feeling like i sort of missed my window. back in elementary, middle, or high schools were when sports were organized, and everyone was on the same schedule for practices and such. at the college level, of course were the college teams, which i’m sure were the same, but for the casual player, intramurals i’m sure is where people stopped coming to all practices (much like people start skipping classes) due to scheduling or other life things. and now, i’m sure it’s even worse now that we’re older. there would probably be a dedicated few, but not as much a team bond for all members. and not to mention i have no stamina or physical ability whatsoever, and would bring down whatever team in whatever sport i tried at this point. (did i also mention that apparently i just found out recently might have a heart problem, which would actually explain a lot about why i never could run as long or fast as others?) but yeah. i kind of want to know what that feels like. to belong on a team, working towards the same goal. someday…
… i kind of want one now. this concept of rivals is common in anime, especially in shonen manga between guys, but there are also some examples of girls having it too (erza and mirajane comes to mind). not quite enemies, not quite friends necessarily, but someone to sharpen you, who pushes you forward because every time you feel like you’re getting ahead, somehow, they seem to be just a step ahead of you… and so you end up pushing each other to limits you wouldn’t have otherwise. even in real life, quest crew and beat freaks talked about each other in that way, and the mutual respect they have for each other is obvious.
of course, ideally, one would have intrinsic motivation and challenge oneself, but sometimes i think it would be nice to have that other person/people out there to compete against.
… i guess that also means i need to change my whole mentality. i think i suffer a little bit from artemis fowl’s problem (though for different reasons) – there are very few people i actually look up to in real life. not because i look down on them or anything, but because i guess i’m pretty indifferent to most people, or maybe it’s b/c i don’t care enough about what i’m doing to really research into/analyze how other people are doing that. or maybe i just like doing things my own way. but yeah. in need of motivation. maybe i should try to find someone whose science is close enough to my area who is faster/better than me, and try to beat them. -.-|| though considering i don’t have a strong interest in what i’m doing right now, perhaps that will be rather difficult to find.
random thought of the day: i don’t really get why people like ballet. it’s never been a thing that i’ve liked, and i don’t really see why people think it’s that “beautiful”. to me, it just seems so repetitive/limited in terms of movements. and yeah, some of the jumps and spins are pretty amazing athletically, but it really just looks pretty awkward, especially if you watch the feet in toe shoes. plus, ballerinas all walk kind of funny/duck-footed in normal shoes (and there are so many injuries that could happen with the toe shoes – in a way reminiscent of the foot binding stuff in china back in the day, though of course to a much lesser degree).
oh man, i loved this guy back in the day – i guess if i thought about it, i’d say he was my favorite character in mary poppins. his energy and smile and everything was infectious, and that chimney sweep number – probably one of my most favorite dance numbers ever. so when i saw this special, of course it gave me huge nostalgia feels (even though the dancing here is of a much lower caliber than the actual one lol :P):
since that clip doesn’t show him actually saying anything (and I can’t find any follow up vids), I went on a whim to search him up on youtube, and found this interview, which was cool to watch: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=spUjy-bFZb8&ebc=ANyPxKpVObG1YNQdJxrlq3N3rwktPEIpSL8d33G96sTWKhFS2Iac4uu4FgUh3BAbYwtRV9cwBxT8hbeLbe-qM93wN5vjCyS5Gg
so yeah, happy belated 90th birthday Dick Van Dyke, and may you live many more happy years! 🙂
you know, i’ve always thought it didn’t really make sense why no one recognized the sailor scouts when in uniform, because they looked exactly the same in it as out of it. it’s something i’ve puzzled about since i was a kid watching the show (and of course it turns out in the manga that people figure it out pretty quickly, but in the 90’s anime, they led us to believe no one would recognize them, for some reason). especially usagi, since her hairstyle and color is extremely distinctive. but anyway.
apparently it’s not that hard to disguise oneself though. i noticed this when i first started wearing glasses again a bit, and a bit even just when i first got bangs, but i was reminded of it again today because 3 times in the last 3 days, i’ve been unrecognized with just a slight alteration to appearance. on friday, i was wearing glasses, and got passed by two people who i know, and who should definitely recognize me, and they didn’t bat an eyelash as they walked right on by without any shred of recognition in their eyes. today, i was in make-up, and ok, i guess i was more dressed up than normal for the photo shoot (for me, but still pretty casual outing dress for anyone else), but there was a girl with her boyfriend who was in my class in med school who totally would have walked past me had i not called out her name and said hi. she did a long double take, and was like “dang, i didn’t even recognize you!” and i was like lol “yeah, well, this is what i look like when i actually have make-up and stuff on haha”. the ironic thing is that she’s usually the one who has make-up on while i’m not, so she looked a little different too, but not so much than she was unrecognizable, for goodness’s sakes. i don’t think i look THAT different with make-up! though i did surprise myself in the mirror a few times, so maybe it was a big enough change to confuse people… i wonder if it was the make-up, or the outfit, or both? anyway. it was interesting.
sigh, didn’t get much done again. on the plus side, he put out some of the pictures out already and a lot of them look great! super happy with them ^.^
took some “lifestyle pictures” out near pepper place and the park today with a friend. actually took quite some time to figure out the outfits (probably like… an hour each T__T… and that was already helped along by the fact that he picked the dress out of a few that i sent b/c he asked for them, and that i finally decided to go with the one that i could see as business Mars XP) cuz i suck at stuff like that, and the make-up alone also took that long T__T. but we actually got a few good pictures today so i’m pretty happy about it. i told him that if i never took another good picture again in my life, i’m happy with having these haha – that’s how much i’m liking them. ^.^ yay for having good photography friends! 😀